What’s new? I got a job as a cook at a convenience store near my house. Its fucking rough though. I’m still working on getting over the baby. Just when I was emotionally healed enough, horrible cramps make me call into work and make an appointment with my doctor. Turned out to be a cyst that had collapsed because I was ovulating. Well the ovulation is a good sign, and when she did an ultrasound, she said I looked like I wasn’t too far off from that time of the month, another good sign. But, I must have some scar tissue blocking my cervix or something because nothing’s happened. She prescribed me some of the same pills I had to take the night before my D&C, which are these gross white shew tablets with no flavor, that have horrible warnings on the leaflets they put in you bags at Rite Aid. Plus progesterone, which I have read is used in post menopausal women to help with side effects. Fucking weird. I’m a month shy of 20, and I’m taking this shit. But she said it will start my period, and I have to go back to her on Thursday. Shit’s always happening around me. Two weeks from now will be mine and Ethan’s first anniversary. And a week after that will be my 20th birthday. Hopefully, I will be able to clear up my reproductive health issues in time to have some fun with my boyfriend on our anniversary.
My LMP was September 27th, 2013.
Missed my next period on October 25th, 2013.
Found out I was pregnant on November 1st, 2013.
Went for my ultrasound on December 19th, 2013, and found out that I had had what doctors call a “Missed Abortion,” or “Missed Miscarriage,”.
The baby had died, but my body didn’t expel the remains like in a normal miscarriage
I had no idea that my baby had been dead for five weeks… :(
Had a D&C on December 20th, less than 25 hours after finding out I lost my baby.
Here it is, six weeks later, and no cycle to speak of. Getting worried. How am I supposed to even entertain the idea of trying again, if I haven’t even gotten a period yet? I’m fucking frustrated.
I’m 6 weeks pregnant :) didn’t even know if I could get pregnant because of how long I was on the depo shot. But I’m excited. Its gonna be a long ride. I’ve already started buying baby stuff. Mostly blankets and lap pads. But yeah. That’s what’s new. Oh, and I’ll have my GED this month, too. So that’s cool.
Aw gotta love Iroh!!!